Changes…

[osodecanela]

First thing this morning I stepped onto the scale. I stopped and simply stood looking down. I really love seeing that I'm now firmly below 300 pounds. The scale is now telling me I've lost 70.

I was rummaging through my sweater drawer this morning, then decided it was time to open up the zipped vacuum bag at the bottom of the drawer. It turned out to have a whole bunch of sweater vests everyone of which now fits me. (Score!) All of them are 2 x.

Shirt and sweater on, plus socks and shoes, I went into the closet to look for pants. Standing there I thought, "I wonder if my utilikilt fits me?" I tried it and unfortunately the answer is 'not yet'. Then I realized there's a very major difference between 'not yet' and 'not anymore'.

All that aside, I really need to spend time in the closet this weekend. There are tons of 4x shirts that I have to pack away and tons more I have to wash in order to be able to wear again. (Dust/must) There is easily a two week wardrobe, if not more, of Land's End shirts all 3X, that fit me well again. Wearing them, actually wearing any clothing that fits properly, reinforces a positive body image.

Time to head for the gym.

Comments

[albadger.livejournal.com]

Congratulations -- This is great! I'm going on a big trip in April and need to get into better physical shape by then. Mind if I use you as inspiration?

[osodecanela.livejournal.com]

My dear, you have my permission to use me anyway you wish!

Good luck with affecting the change and remember, ¡Si se puede!

[beartalon.livejournal.com]

I have been seeing your posts for quite some time in my list of shared interests, but I'm not sure why because we have few shared interests that I see.

However, I've been on my own weight loss journey. I am also below 300 pounds, down from 370 in September 2012. I crossed that mark back in early December and I'm now at 285 according to the clinic I attend for the weight loss. My family doctor's scale was the one that measured me at 370, and on that scale I'm 280, so I've lost either 85 or 90 pounds depending on which scale I use. My goal is 240.

I like the tag body reclamation. I've never really thought of it that way. It would apply to me as well, since I'm exercising and going to to the gym, not just losing weight but gaining muscle and being more active in general.

[osodecanela.livejournal.com]

Paul, I've seen your name as well. I suspect it's due to the circles on LJ in which we travel. We have a number of folks we follow in common.

Body Reclamation is part of a positive affirmation for what I'm doing. I'm reclaiming that which is rightfully mine. My own provider has been trying to get me to reframe this journey, to rewrite my own narrative as to who I am. As shallow as it way sound, in some ways our weight defines who we are. She has tried getting me to know the normal weighted person within. I'm very busy re-acquainting myself with the person who's able bodied. That last part is a change just within the past couple of months. It used to be re-acquainting my self with the person who's not disabled. The difference in prospective is I think an important one, and one that's a necessary part of the journey I'm on.

As for goals, yes I have them, and they vary as to their importance to me. There's a part of me ready to awaken tomorrow, no longer obese. Nice fantasy, but obviously not happening. In the long term, I'm not certain now where I'm going to end up, so I tend to think in terms of milestones rather than specific weight goals. The next major one is to get back to where I was when this weight gain began, which is 47 pounds south of where I am now. That will put me at 250. I hope to be there by the end of the spring, but it will take whatever it takes. After that the next big milestone is 200. X-mas perhaps? Again, I get there, when I get there. After that milestone, who knows? I don't know what I'll physically look like at that point. What skin will remain? What subcutaneous fat will be gone and what will remain and where?

Honestly, where I am mostly, is in living in a positive, healthy and life sustaining way. What does Weaver need today? More sleep? More fiber? Another run? Sex? More time to meditate? It means not putting my own sustenance on the back burner all the time, so that I'm not on the list of my own priorities. If I do these things, the weight for the most part will take care of itself.